- I train to do a 5K or longer and actually RUN it...not walk it?
- I don't snack on chips or sweets?
- I actually succeed at weight loss?
- I actually defined myself as a thin woman and not an obese woman?
- My children got to see me as a normal (thin) woman for most of their lives instead of how they've seen me so far?
- Normal for my children would be me keeping up with them, not making excuses for the things I can't do?
See, my reality so far - how I've defined myself for years - is opposite of all of these things. Even when I was thin, in my head I felt like I looked the same either way. In my head I didn't truly believe that I would stay that way. I don't know how to change my mind to believe that if I do lose weight that I can stay that way. I still don't believe it's possible for me.
I do think the things I say out loud and write should be positive and opposite of what I'm doing in this particular entry. From all that I've learned over the years I do know that the only way to change your belief is to think, say, and write things the way you want them to be. However, it seems at this moment that I need to face reality head-on...I sort of think that I need to "call out" all those beliefs that I am currently carrying with me.
The everyday miracle in this scenerio won't be me losing weight. It will be me believing myself as someone who can eat normal and keep a decent weight; it will be me believing myself as a middle-aged athlete; it will be me believing myself as a good example for my children; it will be me believing myself as a beautiful woman worthy of my husband's admiration. It's a huge order...and that's why it's an everyday miracle.
3 comments:
You can do it! Set the goal, run that first 5k! You have inspired a new post by me, with the steps to take to get there!
In my opinion, the greatest gift we can give our children - especially our daughters - is to love and truly embrace ourselves exactly as we are today. You don't have to be thin to be a great example to your children. And there are heavy people who are in good health. Instead of aiming to get thin, aim to provide the best fuel you can to your family, including yourself. And move a bit each day. That way, you measure your goal every day, instead of your progress towards some distant, unlikely future. You don't have to run a marathon one year from today. You just need to dance for 5 minutes - today. You don't have to lose 100 pounds over the next year. You just need to eat a banana instead of a cookie - today. THAT is your miracle!
JenG, thank you for the encouragement! I will be following your blog to look for your new post and finding all that I can apply to a new way of living my life to its fullest.
OyaSophia, *tears*, *uggh*, seems so simple...and again, great advice! You are a wise woman. Thank you.
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